I know I've sort of been blasting this blog with a lot of "memory" posts from the holidays. I want to write more, but I've been in a bit of a funk lately. Not a depression, but not "on-top-of-the-world" feeling. I keep trying to force myself out of it, then I realize I need to just process through it, and then I get impatient so I try to force myself out of it. Vicious cycle. I know many of you are aware I have fibromyalgia so that adds to all the self-sabotaging thoughts that go through my days where I feel a little "down under."
I'm definitely not blogging this as a downer for anyone, I seriously promise that. I'm just trying to be real and hoping that this might be a way to force myself out of it. By acknowledging it. I know that not many "random" people read my blog, mostly my family and friends, so I know it's safe to post this. And I know most all of you have been through times like this-- The feeling of being weighed down by big questions like-"what does my life mean/what am I accomplishing with my life", to the smaller questions and/or criticisms of "why didn't I work out again?!/why can't I do something simple like keep my house clean?/and why did I cheat on my diet AGAIN?!".
Honestly, I'm not writing this to fish for positive reinforcement (even though I love that all of you love me... I definitely know I'm loved), I actually am afraid to post this because I'm embarrassed that anyone will feel that I'm doing that. I am just writing this to be real... and let you know why my posts have been more of a family journal when I promised myself I would do more writing... because sometimes the simple task of hitting "Publish" on a post-- that is full of a slew of pictures I have just spent an hour sorting through, is a simple, yet invigorating feeling of accomplishment for a day of feeling unaccomplished, it is something outside of my To Do List, and something to zone away on without thinking about real life. So forgive me if I keep posting away. I may come out of my funk soon. If anything, I'd love to hear if any of you can relate.
Thursday, March 1, 2012
Another month gone by! Here we are on March! Wow!
Part of my plans for the Instagram posts are it gives you a glimpse as to future posts that have more pictures that go along with it. Some don't have more than just the Instagram picture though. This is sort of like a precursor to longer posts later on.
|We've switched jobs. Xanthe Villa is on culinary skills this week aka learning to cook. Today was breading chicken and homemade marinara sauce for Chicken Parmigiana. (continuation of February Instagram thread with teaching kids to clean.)|
|Gettin ready for a new week. New room check off signs to help girls remember how to accomplish their chores. (teaching my children life skills.)|
|This is Spencer's new favorite movie. He walks around the house singing "This is Halloween, this is Halloween" over and over. A boy after my own heart.|
|Seeing this flower bed made me really happy today. First flowers I've seen in a long time.|
|me: Took the girls for a sports physical and came out with all three getting unexpected shots. Spencer was very concerned with the "hole in my leg."|
nsteimle: Ow. Did you let them pick out a prize??
me: Ya. Treats from the shoppette. It's like 7-11.
|Not an instragram picture- Spencer painting pictures for James' birthday. This one is Percy but he painted the James train for Uncle @jiggityjames.|
|Starting our Easter Countdown. We're about 4 days late but you know. It's all good. There are little daily devotionals and each one is numbered ready to print.|
|Xoe's Instagram pic-Decorating cakes for Young Women's|
|Taking advantage of this amazing day.|
|Takin a Springtime stroll with dad.|
|Building train tracks on the driveway. Why not? We gotta spend every moment out in the sun when we got it.|
|We might have a lefty!|
|Just bought this. It has brought light into my life and is basically a piece of Brillo pad. Thank you Fuzz-A-Way.|
|me: Spencer joining yoga poses with me.|
heathermegan: haha, he's better than me!
|me: For a boy who hates vegetables, do these count as eating some? Hehe.|
ruthylou: Hmmm, Have you tried smoothies with veggies in it?
me: He won't drink smoothies. Ugh. I've been hiding veggies in food from Deceptively Delicious.
ruthylou: That works.
|This makes me sooooo happy!|
|Gettin ready for warmer weather.|
|Perfect Sunday family bicycle ride weather. Have I mentioned how much I love Spring?|
|Takin one of the team. My bicycle tire is out of commission so he traded me halfway through and took a turn on one of the girls' pink bikes.|
|Another day at OT. This kid about has a heart attack when he knows it's time for "Ergoma." He counts down the days. This slide helps with his sensory.|
|Spending some time just lying in the sun in the backyard. The cool air mixed with the warm sun is my perfect weather. I may set up shop out here. I wish you could see the climbing rose bushes but this picture doesn't do it justice.|
Stay tuned for all the fun March events elaborated on with future posts!